rainbows?

I feel like I’ve been reading how people are battling an onslaught of depression or emotional roller coasters lately. A few websites I read, and myself included, have written about this. Whats going on? It’s spring outside! Why am I so sad?
Aaron and I have talked at length on whether or not I would be writing my reasons for this sadness on this website – and no, I’m sorry, this time I won’t be. After reading Que Sara Sara the other day all I wanted to do was write about whats going on right now but then I calmed down. And just today I read about a friends emotional roller coaster. The reason for all of our sadness is different but we’re still in the same boat.
I haven’t felt like writing because part of me just wants to throw my computer away, it keeps me from being the mom I want to be. It’s addicting and some days I can’t stay away. Jessica suffers from this, because she’ll be asking me to play and I’ll tell her only a few more minutes which turn into 30 and then who knows whats going on.
I don’t know. I get all the hype about keep writing when you don’t want to and blah blah blah – but this isn’t who I want to be. Tired and grumpy and wishing there was a way I could just have one more hour alone. The sun is shining … I should not be sitting here.

3 thoughts on “rainbows?

  1. Jodi
    Please know that I’m praying for you and I’m hear if you ever need to talk, vent, or just exist with another adult. I think we have a lot of the same struggles.

  2. Thanks for commenting, and thanks for letting me know you’re thinking about me. Oh man the adult conversations we could have – and lets! I’m all for it. Lets do wine tasting or coffee or something completely non-primary colored.

  3. i have been sad lately too, and i feel the same way-its spring time! i wait all year for this to come, and normally it improves me mood dramatically. this year it hasn’t so much. its nice to know that i’m not the only one, b/c most of the time i just feel crazy! you think it would help if you and i chatted–rather than telling all of cyber-world about it? if it would, i’m totally up for that!

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