Focus

Since everyone and their mother is waiting for me to have this baby and I’ve been consumed with thinking labor would or could start at any minute – I’m changing the direction of these thoughts today and making an effort to stop thinking about it already.
No matter how this baby gets here – he’ll be here before the end of May, which is only weeks away. In the mean time I’m going to take long baths, put my feet up, enjoy the present my wonderful husband got me in the cleaning service that comes once a week for the next little while. I’m going to bask in the sun with my daughter, play in the dirt and probably make a royal mess making something with her … like cookies or play doh.
I’m going to take walks and stop to pet the worms because Jessica’s fascinated with all things “creature” right now. We’re going to eat watermelon out of it’s core with spoons on the patio and buy fresh cut flowers from a local florist.
I’m going to plan our little get away for the end of May – and circle all the things I want to do around Tulip Time on the calendar and then dream about eating cotton candy and caramel apples. Then I’m going to save my pennies so I can actually eat a caramel apple when the time comes. I want to take a long walk downtown while the food vendors are hanging out and tell Jessica stories of all the Tulip Time’s past and how we ceremoniously eat at “Junk Food Alley” every year to kick off the Tulip Time season with my family. And how we still do it to this day, our own little tradition. A way of inaugurating this festival into our lives for the week or two it’s around. We love Tulip Time.
I’m going to make a t-shirt with Jessica that announces her Big Sister status, but only if and when she wants to help. This morning I’m going to carry her around like a baby because that’s what she’s requested and I’m enjoying every minute of her soft kisses and curly post-bath hair tickling my face as she pretends to coon like a newborn.
But right now? Right this minute – I’m going to make breakfast for her and I and then eat, in front of the TV with her while she watches Tom and Jerry because we never let her watch Tom and Jerry in the morning – or while eating breakfast. And today? Today is different. Today we’re thinking about something other than parenting or a baby coming. Today we’re thinking about the moments we pass up all too often to hurry on to the next thing in life – whether thats an appointment or an agenda or just simply something else to do. Not today. Today we’re embracing the small stuff.

5 thoughts on “Focus

  1. Amen to all of that! That post was such a breath of fresh air……. and the start of a major craving for Tulip Time junk!

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