Verdana emotions

I keep going back to places I promised myself I’d never go again. Writing this book, I’ve been trying to write it for more than 10 years. Only, and also, I haven’t tried at all, not earnestly.

I was telling Aaron this week how scared I am of this book. What if I get finished and then I hate it? Or the people who read it hate it? And he said: then you’ll write another one. Just like that.

What a simple expectation. How easy it was for him to believe in me. I might not be the next great writer and I might not make it to the shelves of a box-book-store … but I might find an honest circle of people who feel the same way. Who can respect my story and the raw brokenness it brings – and maybe that’s enough.

Maybe waking up every morning and drowning in these black and white Verdana emotions will be enough when I’ve written my last sentence and cried my final tears through this year of writing.

4 thoughts on “Verdana emotions

  1. I think what you are doing is AMAZING! It’s a goal I have always had for myself, but you are actually doing it. It is hard to put yourself out there and dig up emotions and re-live the past. But it is worthwhile work, even if it doesn’t end up on the best seller list, that is not the point. You will find tremendous value in it and there will be others who do as well. You can do it!!!

  2. writing a book is an amazing experience… I wrote three 30 day, 50,000 word novels in 2011… this year I will revise one. YOU CAN DO IT!

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