I have purposely shied away from writing about my faith on this website because part of me wants to reach a bigger audience, part of me dreams of having a successful website with readers all over the world - and the sad realization about that is that I've been wishing and dreaming of that without a presence or even thought of God here.

Why haven't I seen this before? That without God my ambitions are shallow? I am a woman of faith, of deep rooted, heavily believing God fearing faith and I live in a country where I can shout this from my rooftop without persecution - so why don't I?

I am so scared. So shallow, so proud. I want everyone to like me, even if they don't know me and more so if they do. I want, I want, I want. I'm selfish and blind, too.

I am very aware of the bubble I live in, it's something Aaron and I talk about and discuss often - it's a crutch, a very shiny and comfortable crutch to stay comfortable. To stay stagnant.

It would be unnatural for me to start writing about my faith all the time but it's also been unnatural for me to leave it out thus far. I wouldn't dream of leaving Jessica out now that we have Oliver so just because I can't see God or hear him audibly talk to me doesn't mean He's not there or Bigger than all of this any way.

I guess I just need to say it so that if all the world hears it or reads it, they'll know. I am loved unconditionally, in a way I cannot fathom, by a Heavenly Father who has healed deeper wounds than my mind ever knew could exist in my heart. He is patient with me and gentle beyond my own words. He is the Great I Am. His love and mercies are new to us every morning and I fall at His feet in utter disbelief that He would ever consider me Holy, Worthy or Beautiful. The most amazing part? He does. 100% He does and I am forever indebted. I am a forever girl for Jesus.

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this brought tears to my eyes, for many reasons, especially that last paragraph. tears in my eyes...mainly b/c i have such a hard time believing that some days.

ok i should be more clear, i have a hard time believing that about me--not you! thanks for writing that jodi

Have you been able to start your Beth Moore study yet?!?

Thanks for the encouragement Tracy :)

Jessie - no, not yet -still waiting for my girlfriend to tell me she's ready ... hopefully soon though!

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We're trying to get the link to work so it'll be static here on the site - and then you can check back often because I'm going to try super hard to get things going on here :)

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sooo great! i love this one!

Thanks! :) I do too, so if it doesn't sell we have a spot for it in our house, which works out kinda nice :)

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Sincerely,
Jodi

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Terrarium
More Terrariums
Because every house needs a hen
Teapot Having a fresh lemon isn't always likely
So this is what the middle of my table has been missing for the last 5 years ...
Berry bowls and cups you and I both know that the blueberries taste better when served out of these beauties.
And a milkshake tastes better out of these
My addiction to pyrex is no longer in remission
Mmmm, linens
If I had something to tile, I would have just found the perfect tiles for that project
I'm loving the aquas these days
It's true, we all need one of these pieces in our collection the awfully ugly little thing that we use once or twice a year but evokes such great conversation it quickly becomes the highlight and your favorite hummus platter.

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Hey Jodi ~ my Mom (Grandma Jane) has the EXACT little hen, AND the little white bird salt and pepper shakers! I remember years ago when Uncle Jimmy gave her those shakers, and she has them either in her china cabinet or on her table during family dinners. I'll let her know you're interested in them! LOVE YOU!

I used to have a hen, too and then Aaron made me clean out the cupboards and away it went. I like to declutter my life but now that I know what I want in my kitchen I'd like to reclutter a few things :)

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This picture tells a story. Just beautiful!

Thank you!

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I couldn't be happier about this, actually. I am awkward enough on my own, I really don't need the added awkwardness of complete strangers to make my life more interesting. Or maybe I do.

This past month has been busy with wedding stuff for some of our friends- parties and rehearsals and then the wedding itself. One of the parties was the traditional bachelorette party and just to display my entire collection of awkward behavior, something quite shocking and really hurtful happened to one of the girls that was with us - and um, I hugged her. Just ran up to her and hugged her, like ... like she was somehow going to feel magically better if I gave her a mom hug ?? Because literally those mom hugs do wonders ... on three-year-olds. I even bent down a bit and was awkwardly reaching out - cheek to cheek.

Seriously. Why don't I just have a folder marked "be still and shut up" somewhere in my brain that I can count on?

Not that this wasn't appreciated. I'm not saying the hug was terrible - it definitely wasn't the worst thing to do but it kind of was, at the same time. I just don't have the mental capacity to comfort other people in almost any situation, especially if I've been through it myself. Death, heartache - family crap. I generally want to run and hide in those situations because I feel like I should have SOMETHING to say to my friends or people in my life - something to let them know that there is an "other side" that things will slowly get better. But it's awful, I'm a clamoring bottle of teenage spirit in which the pimple faced kid with greasy hair finally gets the nerve to talk to the popular kids and all they have to talk about is their pet hamster and how it's mating season.

Yeah, that kid had tons of friends.

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Hip Hip Hooray!!

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Zoe
Oliver
Ezra
Solomon
Whose coming next???

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Yay yay yay!!! I love it, what a cool name! I can't wait to find out what Leanne has!

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I said - do you want me to show you an "M"? and she heard "N" and then said, no mom - I'll show you ...

Oh, right. You are a genius.

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Oh, she did a great job! We're working on learning all the letters at our house right now.

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He hardly knows what to do with himself.

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