This is one of the many One Month photo’s I posed my child for. Why pay JCPenny when I have a good camera??? The one month mark has been the milestone of Jessica smiling – she smiled at me this morning … twice. I cried. I called Aaron and my mother – MY BABY SMILED. AT ME. TWICE.
Today was her one month check up with her doctor. New stats are:
8 lbs 13 oz
20 1/4 inches (apparently she shrunk, not actually though, just measured differently)
Head is 36 cm
I don’t go to the graveside very often, not because I don’t want to or it’s too hard for me. I just don’t go – I don’t like going alone, although I don’t want to go with just anyone. Sometimes I don’t know what to say or how to control myself. But taking my daughter there, being in the same presence as his body, his spirit in a way, felt like going home. I miss him so much. Sometimes it feels like he’s away on a golf trip and he’ll be home soon. Sometimes it even feels like he never was, like it was all a dream.
I want Jessica to know everything there is to know about Wayne, my pappy.